 Pauu Intia 21 Years Old Bachelor of Science in Nursing Makati Medical Center: Batch '12 Future USRN Instagram: @misspauuparazzi Twitter: @misspauuparazzi ( ) |
Hello Reader!
Feels like it’s been ages since I last wrote my thoughts about 2011 (click to read post) I’m never surprised that this year is about to end because for me, and I’m not expecting everyone to feel the same way, it’s been a long, long year. A lot has happened and my mind is kinda crappy right now LOL It’s like there are a lot of things goin’ on and I need focus to compose them into words. I never really “blogged” for a long time like actual “writing” you know, posting photos has become my thing recently. INSTAGRAM!
To start it all off, New Year’s Resolution? Well, I don’t have one actually. I don’t want to make another promise that I surely cannot keep. Have you ever heard other people say that if you started a year wrong, the whole year will go wrong too? If you actually believe in that saying, I won’t be surprised if your whole year will turn out wrong because it’s all in the human mind. We all witness problems and challenges but we can still live the life full of love and compassion if we decided to. God gave us freedom and that gives us opportunity to make choices, to embrace changes and accept this world of diversity. So if ever you made a mistake, it’s not the end of everything- you can always welcome a fresh start even if it’s not New Year. ”I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. -Marilyn Monroe” This year I got the chance to reconcile with someone I haven’t talked to for over more than a year. You can’t keep hatred for all your life, if you think that the time you had is enough, then so be it. Don’t take so much time more than you ever need because who knows if today’s your last?
I love my 2012, I think it is my best year yet. This year, I was able to close one chapter of my life and wholeheartedly opened a new one. I earned my Bachelor of Science in Nursing degree with the help of my parents and the whole family together with all my friends who worked with me to reach the same goal. I’ve been able to do the things I love the most and have experiences that somehow showed me clearly what I really want in life. I’ve attended the fashion week, blogger events, triathlons, photoshoots and with those I met people I really look up to not only face to face but also interacted with them. Traveled to places with my family around the country where I was raised and saw the beauty of places I’ve never seen before. Done things I’m not actually proud of, made mistakes, and been aware of what’s wrong but still did them anyway. All those really matter because I never lose, it’s just that I win or I learn. Life is too short to have regrets.
For me, this year is like a movie that offered me a lot of real life stories that molded me to what I am and to what I will become. I’ve witnessed my friends work so hard and I stayed with them til they succeeded. It’s such a beautiful scene for me to see them grow and they’re truly one of my biggest inspirations. August is the best thing that happened to me this year, knowing that it was my last month in the Philippines, I got the chance to hang out with people I never really had the chance to go out with often because of college, got the chance to catch up with people I never really had the chance to talk to that much and most of all, met new friends for keeps. That month was the best month of my life yet. That feeling of doing everything like it’s your last, got the best bonding times with your loved ones like you’ll never ever gonna see them again, and the feeling of having no time to rest because you don’t want any minute to waste. Family, relatives, friends and everyone being so nice, said words that they don’t want to regret of not saying, it’s just pure bliss for me. I’ll never ever forget those moments and those truly deserve to a have a place in my heart, always.
After 20 years, this time I had to be apart from my family who has been with me every single day of my existence. It’s been really tough knowing that I had to spend time away for quite some time that only God knows for how long. I’m lucky to live in a century with technology that made video calls and social networks possible but it’ll never be the same to feel the warmth of their hugs especially on Holidays and birthdays or basically just the safe feeling of having their presence right in the room next to mine. It’s been really crazy having happy and sad phone calls from family and friends that all you want to do is just be on the same place where they are and just stay beside them and listen. On the positive side, I’ve been really grateful and thankful for them being still in touch with me even though I’m approximately nine thousand miles away from them. Spent the Holidays differently this year, and “different” doesn’t always mean it’s bad. It’s been more than awesome and I’m looking forward to spending more and more Holidays with Mucha family and hopefully with Intia family again, next year.
I’m also blessed to have my second family who loves and accepts me for who I am. I got to live with the nicest people in the world, have a sister I never had and another little brother to be added on the list. I’m really thankful to have them in my life and I couldn’t ask for more. This year of losing and gaining weight, I also got the chance to have the shortest haircut I could ever have, that is the same haircut I’ve wanted for a long time, and got really good feedbacks! Did I mention gaining weight? Just to be clear LOL Also, I’ve been having a thing for anything with spikes, studs, cross, skulls and everything dark colored. I’ve been also into different kinds of television series such as The Vampire Diaries, Pretty Little Liars, Grey’s Anatomy and The Walking Dead- next seasons I’m looking forward to on 2013! Thanksgiving, Trick or Treating, Fall season and Winter snowfall are just few of the things I’ve always been excited about experiencing since I got here. Not to mention learning how to make friendship bracelets, how to drive, how to eat crabs and do nail arts are really awesome.
I think that should be it? 2012 was the bomb. Feeling quite scared for what 2013 may bring but I’m really excited and always ready to face anything that life has to offer. I have this trust to myself that reminds me that I can handle anything with God and my loved ones around. I love them so much and I wouldn’t trade them for anything. I know I can survive 2013 and I’m looking forward to another year of surprises and lessons. Hoping that this new year comes with glow of hopes in our minds and hearts to give us confidence and courage for a fresh start. Happy New Year and wishing you all the best.
Much love, Misspauuparazzi
Since last fall, sneaker wedges have been a really hot trend. We’ve seen Beyonce sporting them while toting Baby Blue around, Alicia Keys rocking them at the NBA games, and they even come in handy to some of the top street style photographers.
These aren’t just ordinary sneakers. They’re unique, they’re chic—and they’re enough to give you a workout just climbing a few stairs haha! Or not.
They are extreme high-tops with an internal heel, sneaker wedges trick people into thinking that you’re casual and sporty while secretly giving you a little lift. I need that LOL
They’re on the feet of models like Gisele Bündchen, Miranda Kerr, and Joan Smalls. Kate Bosworth wears them with a flowy skirt and Elle Fanning throws them on with mom jeans around New York wearing them.
The success of the sneaker wedges is due in large part to French designer Isabel Marant, patron saint of the off-duty model, who has made legions of women look like they didn’t try.
Her $760 Willow sneaker wedge comes with a relatively conservative one-inch heel and an array of washed-out colors. The Willow has sold out at Marant’s boutiques worldwide where the highest-selling pair has gone for $1,435.
These sneaker wedges are elongating on the leg with the right skinny jeans and flattering even. They are comfortable. Cushioned, padded, even orthopedic.
And guess what Auntie got me last night when we went shopping at Pennsylvania? COULDN’T BE ANY HAPPIER!!! ♥ Finally got my own pair of sneaker wedges, can’t wait to wear them hihi
October 21, 2012
3AM Three hours before my flight to USA, family picture! ♥
My awesome friends also came over to my home to spend time with me, they’re truly the sweetest friends ever!
With Igi, Carl, Jen, Kev and Chui (Trina on the phone)
With Smurff, Tellie, Kish, Cosette and Paul
I LOVE THEM ALL OH SOOO MUCHHH ♥
Went to parent’s and siblings’ rooms to give them a warm hug >:D<
Ready to go to the airport now! All smiles!
Carl and Tellie brought their cars and some friends joined them while Jen, Kev, Chui and Paul were in the van with my family and I.
At the airport, Krizzia blondie suprised me!!! She was there :”>
Never in the past month I cried over this because I was too busy spending time with my awesome family and friends. I wouldn’t wanna waste even a minute with them and I want those moments to be happy… until after I checked-in and went out to see them one last time.
I bursted into tears and hugged my mom, that was truly heartbreaking. I was holding onto her too tight while feeling my brothers’ hands rub my back and my dad’s hand on my head. That was indeed a moment I would never want to end.
All my friends were emotional too as I hug them tight one by one. No words were said, just those tears shed. The feelings were so strong and that’s how this post makes me cry right now. I don’t even remember who took these photos.
Ever since I was little, I have this mindset that I’ll be moving in the US after I graduate from college and that’s how my parents raised me too, a person with a dream and a goal to reach. I’m so excited for the time that they’ll be moving here as well too! I would definitely run and throw them some warm hugs immediately. Can’t wait for that moment to come. It’s my daily motivation.
“Why would you cry if you know that you’ll be going to a better place, where you can follow your dreams? You know and everyone knows that this is the best for you.” I have such a strong mom, I get my strength from her, all the hopes from her and all the love in the world from my family and friends. I’m so blessed and I’m really thankful to God for all these.
6AM Manila flight to Nagoya, Japan. Then Japan to Detroit, USA. Then finally Detroit to Baltimore, Maryland. Smooth and comfy 21-hour travel time. It’s been my second time to travel alone to the US, the difference is that this time I got three layovers.
Auntie picked me up at the airport then headed home! That moment I stepped back in the US, everything that happens gets me really excited. Everyday was awesome since I got here and I get the chance to Skype w mom/family daily!
I’m staying at Uncle (mom’s younger bro) and his family’s home sweet home. We had Chinese food and time was 12 hours back from Manila time so it’s still September 1 and perfect time for dinner. Unpacked afterwards.
That feeling that it’s actually waiting for me to come to my new room, priceless. So I have this family picture on my bedside table and photo frames with friends on my desk that I got from them as gift before I leave. So happy that I can see these beautiful photos regularly.
Whenever I find myself homesick, I make sure that I do my best to feel connected in some way to how my former life goes. Have a few photos (or a lot), spend time online and listen to music. Definitely, I talk on the phone or video call old friends and family members too. However, I still have to stay focused on the present and to what I need to do to settle into this expat lifestyle. That, in my case is learning how to drive and continuously reviewing for the NCLEX.
Best thing above all these, I always think of where I am right now and that being one part of my life’s colorful journey. It’s been more than a month and everything about here is great, I have a loving uncle/auntie and sweet cousins! They’re the best and I’m so grateful ♥
