US REGISTERED NURSE
Ok, I don’t exactly know where to begin. Hmm, after everything that has discreetly happened, here is the story. To cut it short, I have been really busy for the past few months preparing for my NCLEX-RN (National Council Licensure Examination for Registered Nurses). Aside from my family from the Philippines and those who are here with me, I also met really amazing people who has the same goal as mine and we worked it out together. September and October has been really tough, I had my priorities and daily schedule of what to do and what to study. Those two entire months I’ve been doing all the best I could and of course, prayers, prayers, and more prayers. I lifted up everything to God so I decided to go out and go Trick-or-Treating with the family instead of drowning myself with more studying few days before I take my exam.
November 2, 2013 The big day, this is really is it. It was a really beautiful Saturday morning. Uncle drove me to my testing center in Baltimore, The Home of Superbowl Champions, also where I passed my English Proficiency Exam, so I really had a good feeling about this city. I wasn’t even nervous at all tbh I was totally relaxed. Family from the Ph even called me and we prayed together on the phone. So, I took my exam for almost six hours (NCSBN- NCLEX) and by the time my computer unexpectedly shut down on me, I wanted to cry but I didn’t cause there were other people taking their exam too and that would be embarrassing LOL The perfect term to describe me that time is “DRAINED”. I was crying so bad when I got inside the car, uncle was there and I was talking to my mom -Seriously. I just couldn’t stop crying. I just can’t. I did my best on my exam and I wasn’t really even thinking about what would the result be, all I can think of is I am tired and I can literally feel that my head is throbbing. Seriously, I didn’t like that feeling. We ate at Popeye’s, didn’t even realize I was starving til I saw the food coming- stress eating! That was a really good meal anyway LOL
Uncle then brought me to St. Ignatius Church in Hickory, MD. It is the oldest active parish in the Archdiocese of Baltimore. It was a beautiful church and I loved it even more when uncle told me that this is one of the churches that the pope visits whenever he goes to Maryland. My family and I have this habit of making a wish whenever we go to a certain church for the first time. I always had that one same wish after I graduated college and since this is the first time I visited this church, I wished for the same thing and thanked God that it’s finally over. Felt a lot better after praying and it’s amazing how the church is so historical as well. Went home afterwards, watched “The Croods”, a perfect family movie that I love so much and by the time I went back up to my room for the first time after I took my exam, tears came out unconsciously after seeing all my books and other resources scattered all throughout my desk and sticky notes everywhere. I don’t really understand but I get so emotional by just thinking about what I experienced that day. It is nothing but close to traumatic for me, I was talking to my mom all night and slept with the thought of "I have no control of whatever the result may be. If ever I passed this exam, it’s not because of me -it’s a blessing from God.”
November 5, 2013 Upon waking up this morning, I felt that I already have the courage to know the result of my exam -finally, after three days! Actually I can already know the result of my exam as soon as it ended that day but I was too scared to know. And the next two days, I was just as scared. Ignorance is bliss as they always say! I went to the Maryland Board of Nursing website, searched my name and saw my License Number posted, literally wiped my eyes and pinched myself just to make sure if this was real life. And it was real, it wasn’t a dream, I am wide awake and I began crying again. I prayed and thanked God first and foremost bec He made this happen. After a few minutes of putting myself together, I sent a message to my family in the Ph to go online on Skype. After five minutes of talking about random topics, I finally sent them the screenshot of my license number named “asdfghjk.jpg” At first they were wondering what am I sending and the next thing I knew I was crying again seeing them celebrating and being euphoric that lasted for around three minutes just cheering and showing all acts of being overjoyed like clapping and screaming crazy with their eyes being watery too. Seeing them like that actually made me happier than I am happy that I actually passed. We are always thanking God for everything during the entire time.
But that was just the start of everything ‘cause they’re just the first to know. My family here is very happy as well. They know everything about my journey, what I do everyday and they’ve been with me all through out. Auntie Patricia even told me that I had that certain glow on my face when I greeted them “Good Morning!” on the day of my exam and that made her feel that I’m gonna make it. Uncle was really excited when he knew about it when he called me, he even asked me twice if it’s true! LOL My cousins were as ecstatic as I am and the entire family had countless group hugs and holding hands while jumping. Thanked them for being with me all the time, for their support and love. Feels like I am the eldest child of this family. Always so thankful of my second parents, Uncle Bert and Auntie Patricia, for everything that they have done for me, I owe them so much. Then I finally told my special friends and called granma in California to deliver the good news. Thanked her and granpa for all their support, she told me that she’s going to talk to me some other time because she is crying already - and I am too! We texted each other instead LOL It was crazy, everything feels so surreal. I am now a U.S. Registered Nurse! ♥
By the time uncle got home, we went back to Saint Ignatius Church. From now on, my favorite church and my favorite saint. I just learned today that Saint Ignatius happens to be the patron saint of soldiers! It’s a sign. *coughs* Military Nursing *coughs*. My family and some friends (who knew that I’ll be taking the exam) and I put all our trust in God and he granted our prayers, His timing is really perfect. Looking back when I was feeling heavy and all tired when I first came to this church, now being all elated like floating while walking through the aisle with matching imaginary sparkles and celebratory music, it feels really amazing. I will never feel just as happy as I am feeling right now if I wasn’t down before and God’s blessing showed me that He can make the difference. This is the church where I got my wish granted, it’s amazing to think about how long I have been wishing for this and now it is finally granted. I just can’t put them into words- it’s just too amazing for words like I am overusing the word “amazing” in this post. I will never forget how this made me feel, all the lessons I learned while I was still on my way, everyone who supported me and stayed with me through everything, all of them, everything, thank you God. I couldn’t thank Him enough, but I have a lifetime to prove it. I will be the best nurse that I could possibly be while touching hearts and lives of people using the blessing that He has given me. I can’t express how happy I am to finally look forward to doing what I love to do for a living- I couldn’t ask for more!
After saying “thank you” to the special people and sending them the first hand news, I finally posted it on Facebook. I don’t use FB anymore not unless there are some friends who are reaching out to me via personal message so I was surprised with all the responses I’ve been getting and they were overflowing. All my other friends are really happy for me too! It is very overwhelming probably because it means the world to me. Call me all dramatic and miss emotional but really, I never felt this before. I never took the board exam in the Philippines and passing this one made everything worth all the wait. I can’t help but become too emotional about this too because really, this is all I ever wanted for a long time and people close to my heart knows that, especially my family. Delivering the good news to the people I love the most can’t get any more amazing than this!
My mom usually has a lot to say all the time but today, she just had to make it simple that she is so grateful for this blessing. Still not used to seeing/reading my name beside the letters “USRN” but this is something that I would love to get used to in the near future. Thanks to my mom and dad for always being there for me, they always trust my decisions and support me all the time. They are thousands of miles away but I never felt this close to them back when we were still in the same house. I’m so happy to have them and as I said this before, the first thing I want to do in life is to continuously make them proud. Looking forward to seeing them soon! I love them so much ♥
I am super touched with my brother’s post! Before I took my exam, he told me “It’s your time to shine” and he said it again! LOL This year is indeed a blessed year for my family and I. Kuya Chester passed his PT board exam last August and was blessed to become a PTRP few days after. I posted it here: Chester Bryan Mucha Intia, PTRP (Physical Therapist Registered in the Philippines) I replied to his post: “Shine bright like a diamond” and his response “Brighter ka pa sa diamond” couldn’t get any cheesier! Thank you bro for always being there for me, we finally made it- Now we’re officially “professional” servants of God. Love you and Manvil so much, super miss you both. Thank you two for always believing in me ♥ Can’t wait for you to come here!
Ate Mona’s IG post aww so sweet, thank you so much!!! Miss you :*
To the first of my special friends to know about the good news (so basically she tweeted and posted on my wall calling me USRN like three or four hours earlier than I officially posted- what a spoiler!!! Haha) We used to talk for hours and hours everyday so basically she knows what’s going on. It’s amazing how she just felt that I am taking my exam during my MIA period- how psychic, or she just knows me too much? Anyway, thank you for always being there for me partnur! I’m super thankful that I have you like I know how thankful you are to have me LOL But seriously, you know everything already. Love and miss you so much :*
AND THIS WINNER LATE REACTION FROM MY BESTBUD NIKO!!! Lol I read her messages when I woke up on the next day hahaha this girl never fails to make me laugh everytime we talk. I miss everything about her -of course how couldn’t I, spent my last months in the Philippines seeing her like everyday because of nothing, we just wanted to eat and laugh together. We basically enjoy each other’s company so much and I am looking forward to her arrival here in the US! Her sister lives in the neighbor state, gosh can’t you come here already? LOL
Of course! My ever so sweet sistah!!! Thank you so much :* I am also looking forward to her arrival here in the US -elder sister and Mama Edna is in TX already! Surely gonna go visit them when she comes! Photo of me that she posted on IG is from our mini photoshoot and she was my photographer. Always missing playing dress-up and having photoshoots with you sistah! Also all our trips and overnights, I will never forget those huhu let’s do that again! Missing you already, love you loaaads! :*
Photo above is a sweet text from my granma! Love her so much, will never stop making her and lolo proud- Miss them so much ♥ And that Viber message from the QueenB! Always making me laugh too, super miss and love you so much :* There are a lot of messages from my friends but these are not like any other so I had to take screenshots because they deserve a spot not only in my humble blog but of course in my heart, forever!!! *cries*
November 7, 2013 Official mail has finally arrived!!! Can’t get any more official than this! ♥ Didn’t include my photo on the letter because I look like crap and I wasn’t even looking at the camera- too bad they won’t ask me if I’m satisfied with the photo that they took when I arrived at the testing center LOL If they did, I would probably demand for another take hahaha but then again, thank you Lord for this! You made this happen!
Clean-up time! This is just 50% of all my resources lol not to mention the NCLEX-RN CDs for thousands of sample questions that I got from different authors, Virginia’s Magical Workbook (yes, I call it that cause it is indeed magical), and all the other books I borrowed from the library. Basically cleared my desk because it’s time to get busy with the next step- Resume Making for job hunting! God’s got me in this, right? Thank you in advance! I love you most, thank you for everything ♥
Nail art for the week! Red soles and you know it, Christian Louboutin inspired nails for me. First time to paint the other side of my nails lol though I always put clear polish everytime I do my nails, this time I used red.
Wet Seal deals!!! Went to White Marsh Mall with the family. Been there for like a few times only because we always go to Christiana Mall in Delaware (my fave) and Harford Mall (least fave) Originally, all five of these costs around $145 but believe it or not, I only paid $20 for all of them! It’s amazing, Michaela even told me I started giggling while I’m at the counter and paying LOL
October 18- Happy Birthday to my first love, Zachary David Alexander!!! LOL This month flew by too fast, not even sure if there’s any significant happenings maybe because I was too busy thinking. Anyway! October can’t end any better, HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!! ♥
Went TRICK OR TREAT-ing with the family! Here are just few snapshots from the videos I posted on Instagram last halloween LOL Check them out at my IG account: @misspauuparazzi Of course, like last year, I was never ready for Halloween. I just wore a simple button down polo, jeans and sneakers and put on that old man with long hair mask. Admit it, I was pretty scary. Lazy excuse, got a bag full of treats within an hour anyway haha!
Hello! Guess who’s back? LOL My last blog post was last September, I was really really busy. Really. Why? I’ll post everything about it soon! So anyway, tweeted the photo above last Sept because I noticed that my hair is getting looonger yay! ♥
Thanks to my sistah Tellie for my Jack Daniels top (always wanted one!) and clear iPhone case! I also got my yearbook this time, been waiting to get a hold of this since they released the copies LOL Thanks to Trina for claiming mine and brought it to my mom’s office before I even knew they distributed copies already. True friends knew me too well. Missing them so much!!! ♥
Goodies from the Philippines! Grandparents from Cali went home to the Philippines so they were able to bring some pasalubong for us here in Maryland too yay! They got us different types of Filipino snacks and of course, clothing for me LOL Thanks to my mom and granma for shopping for me, I will forever miss how it’s like to shop in bazaars!
Here’s granma’s post when they arrived Ph and stayed in my room, yes she has an Instagram acct how cool is that? LOL
Another package has arrived! This time from http://www.drmartens.com/, thanks to granpa and granma for getting this for me, I am so happy and excited to use this. I am still on the process of breaking them in so expect me to overuse this pair especially on winter time! Yaaay
Got my driver’s license on the last day of September yay! Michaela got her license too, feels amazing to be able to drive by ourselves haha thanks to uncle and auntie for letting us borrow their cars lol
WEEK 52 / 12 MONTHS / 1 YEAR
9/1/13 Time flies, I’ve been living here in the US for exactly a year today! A year since I left my area of responsibility and a year since I last hugged my loved ones in the Philippines. I’ve been missing a lot of people, places, food etc recently but it doesn’t really cover everything about me being away from home. There are actually numerous things I am thankful about, mostly are the small things that I thought never change as days pass by but when I come into thinking in a way what’s it like a year ago, a lot has really changed. Just my physical self in particular, the shaved side hairstyle I had when I left the Philippines, now it is on shoulder length, trimmed it twice just to make the sides even and the length, layered. Promised myself to let my hair grow longer though there are times that I kinda miss having that super short hair like I couldn’t care less about how it looks like, just gonna brush it around with my fingers and all that, but my hair already needs some serious fixing using a real brush right now!
It’s the first time I experienced all the four seasons consecutively! My favorite so far is the fall season/ autumn, the transition from summer to winter which is not too cold and not too hot, it’s just perfect. It’s always fun dressing up, I mean, I grew up in the Philippines where it’s like summer all year long so living in a place like this right now always excites me to dress up depending on the weather. A year in the US has been really amazing, living in a peaceful town in Maryland with a happy family, visited the busy streets of New York, shopping malls of Delaware and Pennsylvania, conquered the best of the best roller coasters in the world in Virginia and Ohio, not to mention going to some county fair/museums, multiple antique shops downtown and different restaurants from all over the place. For a year, I was able to post 52 blog posts just to tell a little bit of something how each week went by, lame outfit photos that are mostly mirror shots, photos of food, sometimes experiences etc. I’m surprised that my blog hits/ page views still increases up to now and I really appreciate it if you’re still reading this right now! Knowing that there are still some of you who visits my humble blog from time to time and sometimes leaving a message too, well, that melts my heart. I also have a personal diary, just to let you know that this blog is just a small percentage of who I am. I just choose what I want to post and I decide what to let you know, generally the things I like. So forgive me if your nonsense hate notes are always ignored, Anonymous. And to you my sweet peas, I love you all. (misspauuparazzi.com/ask)
Though my blog right now only consists of my Instagram photos, but with stories, there is no doubt that my blog entries back when I was still in the Philippines were a lot interesting and there’s really a lot going on all the time like fashion/blogging events, getaway/travel with family and friends, college, fun, booze, sponsorships/promotions, and all the other stuff related to social interactions everywhere and that’s what I’m totally missing the most. I met a few people here including those from Bike Camp, from the golf course and the gym but you know, it’s just that I don’t see myself hanging out with them like how I used to with my friends back in the Philippines. Friends like family whom I spend my time with when I’m not at home, and that’s most of the time. Ok I get it, I would probably gain friends if I go to school here or if I have a job or something, but for someone like me, well what do I expect? At least I have my fictional character friends from my multiple Korean/American series that I’ve always been looking forward to, right? No? Ok. Thankful for having my cousins to keep me sane anyway.
I turned 21 last February! Most people say I’m too young to be out of school already. I was 20y/o when I graduated, I understand that most people in the US with the same age as mine are probably still in college or if not, working. But honestly, I’m Asian, tiny and having a young face is already a given! LOL Kidding aside, I never felt so independent before, been washing my own clothes/sheets using the washing machine/dryer, cleaning my own room and bathroom and preparing my own meals whenever my cousins are at school and uncle/auntie’s at work. Also, I’ve been driving with supervision for a year now and that made me quite familiar with the roads and highways round town. Thanks to my uncle for teaching me! I completed Driver’s Education with my cousin, as mandated by the state before getting a driver’s liscense and we’re actually getting ours this month! Yay!
A year has passed and with that, I’ve been able to get my credentials evaluated by CGFNS and passed the English proficiency exam and that made me eligible to take the state boards (NCLEX-RN) and that’s still my goal and yet to come. I believe that getting my USRN liscense will be another big start for me, a step outside the real world, because right now I’m on the “safe side” of the real world, I guess? What could I ask for when in fact, God’s timing is perfect, I am where He wants me to be at this very moment. I am so thankful that I have a very supportive and loving family here, at the same time my relationship with my family in the Philippines gets stronger each day with God in the center of our lives. Looking forward to more adventures, to becoming a USRN, to new friends and relationships, to new memories and the most awaited of all, reuniting with my family! Life only gets better from here, right? I just have to live everyday by keeping my hopes and dreams close to my heart and the next thing I’ll know, everything I’ve been asking for is already set before my eyes. Why? I have an awesome God.
August 15, 2013 Passed by this beautiful scenery in Pittsburgh. Spent the week in Ohio with the family! 8-9 hr roadtrip from Maryland.
OOTD in Camp Perry! First night in Ohio - Just my second time wearing a romper and definitely a wrong timing. We had long hours on the road, water and bathroom breaks are so much of a hassle if you’ll ask me! Girls you know why LOL
August 18, 2013 After spending two long days at Cedar Point (Click to see post) and going back to the hotel already on a midnight for two consecutive nights, we decided to relax and spend the day at the beach.
Picnic, sun bathing and beach dips! Cousins made me their sand mermaid LOL
August 19, 2013 Checked-out at Camp Perry then went to Kalahari Resort - From the moment of arrival there is a sense we were a world away. Kalahari Resort with its authentic African themed guestrooms and suites, by design, goes beyond expectations. Got to love seeing aztec and tribal prints everywhere! Home to Ohio’s largest Indoor Waterpark, Kalahari also offers an outdoor park, spa, 6 restaurants and lounges, night club, artisans, arcades and beach volleyball.
After checking-in our suite, we tried a couple of slides in the waterpark but the Ropes Course kept us occupied on our first day! Since “heights” is not a problem to me and my family, we were challenged by “balancing” LOL It’s gonna be easy if you’re just holding on to your rope at all times so we kept our hands straight on our sides and balanced through the wood and ropes for a challenge! It was pretty intense at first, though you know that you won’t fall completely, it feels amazing when you get through! Volleyball match with some beach boys afterwards *winks*
August 20, 2013 From a tiring day yesterday including a “kids” night out, I mean the arcade, waking up to a cozy room filled with nature interior design feels so relaxing! We ate our buffet breakfast and went back to explore the place afterwards. The enormous park features virtually every kind of water park slide and attraction, including two surfing simulator rides, water coaster, lazy river, bowl ride, wave pool, body slides, tube slides, raft rides, mat-racing slide, interactive water play structure, activity pools, and indoor/outdoor whirlpool saunas. So happy for having the chance to try them all, been in the water for too long- I broke a nail *cries*
The water park itself was fantastic! If you come in the evening or early morning, you can avoid the lines. Perks of being a hotel resident, it opens an hour ahead of those who were having a day-trip. My favorite probably is the water roller coaster such as the Zip Coaster. Fun water slides are the Tanzanian Twister, Zig Zag Zebra and the Cheetah race. They also have a surfing simulator area which is great for people who have never surfed in their lives. The leopard’s lair is a fun area for little kids with a less intense water slide, a play area and a big bucket.
The Wave pool/Beach is great for the whole family. The waves are fun to be in whether you are in the deep or shallow area. We definitely enjoyed Victoria Falls and the other of the same type, those are the water slides that fits 4 people in a rafting inflatable. It’s amazing to feel safe but I swear there were so many lifeguards! LOL Overall, it’s fun and creates bond with the whole family! There’s so much you can do and days would pass by real quick. It’s awesome.
August 21, 2013 Gateway Restaurant is located at the intersection of Interstate 70 in Breezewood, Pennsylvania. This is where we had our lunch stopover on our way to Ohio, our experience was so great and our tummies were so happy that we just had to come back for another stopover on our way back to Maryland. Photo speaks for itself LOL Those were my meals! Yuuummm =P~